[Be a Mentor] I LOVE YOU DADDY! My Dad and,I are separated by State's, and Oceans...... Some Dad's are off fighting War's,Some Dad's are out fighting fire's....Some Dad' are out on the ocean.And other's just out picking up a loaf of bread,and eager to make their way home.......Other's are up,in Heaven.So we carry them in our heart's.....Some single Mother's have to be Mom,and Dad.....Glitter kisses Xxo I MISS YOU (DADDY) AND I'M SO HAPPY (YOUR MY DAD) LOVE ALWAY's ,AND DOUBLE INFINITY! YOUR CHILD Xxo HAPPY FATHER's DAY TO ALL THE DAD's IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! ALL MY (LOVE) YOUR CHILD Xxo">
Years ago I helped someone through a neck surgery ,that then turned into five.... I know that is where all the fear is coming from.That person couldn't even brush their hair,or fend for themselves.I guess seeing that, experiencing that has made Me so aware.I am not walking into this blind, I know what I'm up against.And I know I'm struggling with family,seeing Me that way. Although them is way has been N[] PICNIC......My Family has been pulling Me through, when I lived upstairs it was a studio apartment. And lived with all my paints, and beads around Me~there was order, it just looked a mess. Then the last epirurial changed me. The swell was so bad, I hardly had control of my hands. I haven't beaded since. Although I pulled all my bead in , and around my bed for after the surgery. For I am Hopeful. To paint again,I always wanted to tango.... And I crave to go to the beach.... []nly when I go to the beach, My family and I make a large sand sculpture.[]nly I don't for able to ride in the car,or sculpt... I feel like I'm failing them. So instead I'm making apartment, my project so when they visit it will be []ur new beginning~ It's all mind []ver matter=I CAN D[] THIS!
There are times when We are in the car, and I'm having an anxiety attack. I ride holding onto a pillow, with a box cutter under my leg [ In my mind, the box cutter is to ,cut the seat belts~or break the windows out] When I was in the car accident, the car that hit us caught on fire....My fear is We will be trapped/ I have my good days, and bad. Though I have recognized I need to be the strength, for my Loved []nes~ I look to my family, and say" have I always been this frightened ,they say I'm getting better. They say "You have survived"/And they remind me, the worst is over~ it can only get better from here.... I've been disabled for nearly two years, I've learn to live with the pain.... So even though I afraid of the surgery, it will be the beginning of healing .And getting My life back~ the though of being in bed for 6 to 8 weeks, is un-doing Me. But I'm learning to live with it! I will survive,I'm just tangled in fear. ~I just keep moving , doing, and praying.......For God to give Me the strength I need........See Ya Soon, X[]x PS. []n my way to my favorite place ,the Food Market.....
~ I had taken my youngest daughter Jewlia/aka Raven to the hospital today, also known as Rainbow..... She is fine now, and here with Me [I L[]VE MY LIFE]
[Be a Mentor] I LOVE YOU DADDY! My Dad and,I are separated by State's, and Oceans...... Some Dad's are off fighting War's,Some Dad's are out fighting fire's....Some Dad' are out on the ocean.And other's just out picking up a loaf of bread,and eager to make their way home.......Other's are up,in Heaven.So we carry them in our heart's.....Some single Mother's have to be Mom,and Dad.....Glitter kisses Xxo 
I MISS YOU (DADDY) AND I'M SO HAPPY (YOUR MY DAD) LOVE ALWAY's ,AND DOUBLE INFINITY! YOUR CHILD Xxo 
HAPPY FATHER's DAY TO ALL THE DAD's IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! ALL MY (LOVE) YOUR CHILD Xxo "> 
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