~What there's no wizard, in []z~

My appointment went well, we are scheduling another epirulal, this time in my back.My disc are fragile they say, they want to build them up with steroids= You have no idea what I'm saying right."neither do I" I only know tomarrow is a year since my accident, and I go for the needles on the 29th...My Doctor said that the surgurey is not a gaurantee,in other words there is no Wizard in OZ.....

life is different, as I knew it,but My Love ,You are here,and so am I~learning to live,with limits= Living,and Loving LIFE, Thanking God out loud,for lending me more time to L[]VE!

~Practicing patience [un-finished works]

~Tiger Lily~

~Morning Glory~

~And Rose,[pastel video] these were practice drawings,and this is one of my un-favorite videos,I always said/ "I will re-do these,and make a better video. Well as it stands, I have not .....I have been de-rail. And out in the world ,are to two unfinihed mutals.I see my spine specialist tomarrow, to arrange to meet the surgeon. As my Pastor says I am subdued, and I surrender my self to God, so he can help me serve my purpose. And finish what I started, one stone at a time,and gives me the strength,and courage to build Jabip Village, for people like me= You are not alone X[]x~un-finished works=Bumpy the frog, written and illitrated/just has'nt been binded into a book [althought there is a ruf- draft video]

~Un-finished mutuls~

[sharing gifts]

[water lillies]

[F[]UR WALLS []F STEEL]~[If your wondering why, there are so many started, it because " I don't believe in wasting paint. And I it was my intention, to get back to them......I am subdued, this accident is teaching me patience X[]x.....

~found a memory~

They say I'm grandiose, well that's ok with me. I found a memory, a stone with 7/7/12....Days later was my car accident.Today at church, my Pastor alway takes the time to speak with me, he says " I seem SUBDUED", I guess in away I AM. I feel alittled defeated. This was the first year of 30, I did not re-new my beauty licence. It seems point less, I will never do that work again. I see the same people,week,after week, in meetings,and church."And can't remember there names." It's a if this constant word echo's in my head [permanent] I suppose to be getting things in order, to have a surgery, which I have come to terms with , because I want feel better, yet I'm frightened of the unknown.... What I do know,is my family is learning to exept my memory is gone....And that ok too,It only stings when it's someone I love's [birthday],and I have forgotten, hopefully the can fix the pain or what, cause it....I wake up ,to all of my limb's being num,and in pain=makes no sence...But I always have this sence,I've forgotten something,or I suppose to be some where,and I wish the night mares would go away. I guess, I am subdued,and falling slowly~THIS TOO SHALL PASS~

~I tried to paint today, my spirt is happy,my heart is happy, My body "not so much" God gives me all that I need, and I won't give up someday, there will be a Jabip Village,and paint ,and sing~ and we will make ST[]NE S[]UP~ Without dreams, we wither....I perfer to dream......Til then I send you glitter~

`sending you Lady bugs~

[]n my way to [hurch,I will pray for You, as You pray for me~ sending You, Lady bugs with L[]VE,

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Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

[can you see his eyes open]I dream of a place, I will call my home a store= we will call Jabip Village/with an apt above where I will live,where artist can feel free to move about the cabin.There will be days of gallery exibits,one of kind [hand made works,from quilts to jewelery......I hope to have LIVE Google+ hang outs on Thurs., and Saturday nights....So all of those talented people, can shine there light.....And coffee clutches,Meeting=meeting makers make it [here here]~I hope to build a Village[ []NE ST[]NE at A TIME][ST[]NE S[]UP] Every dollar,will help build,GLITTER X[]x

Here is an old post office box/ I pesonally do not like to use my debit card on line,and maybe your the same way= I need help to open said STORE= JABIP VILLAGE, so maybe people would get involved if there were no way , for for idenity theft [Box #111 @t 1134 S. Blackhorse Pike, Blackwood N.J.[I WON'T GIVE UP!] anything you can donate would be GR8!tap this link SYT6GJ6P97C">

SADE~Cherish the L[]VE~Halleluujah

~Travis is 2~[ Imagine Dragons] welcome to the new age...

~I found a rock date from last year[7-5-12] at this time,I call them memories. Today Travis is two years old,and last year at this time [life was normal] I say this because 7-11-12,is the date of my car accident.It's almost a year, and every day to me is gift. So I say welcome to the new age" my little Monkey". Your MeMom is still here,to play with you ,and love life together XX[]